pregnancy disappointments

I've been thinking about some of these things for awhile now but this weekend solidified some of my disappointments. I'm not depressed over them or hung up on them but I just really had ideas that things would be different. I've accepted my normal but wonder if my next pregnancy will be like this as well.

When we were planning on trying to conceive, I had these glamorous views of being super-pregnant-lady. I should've known right there that was unrealistic but still I held on to those hopes.

Be Active
I was in the best shape physically the year before- I was running, working out, doing triathlons- stuff I never imagined I'd do before and I imagined myself as that big pregnant lady out on walks or at the gym or in the pool swimming laps. I was really hoping to keep up my exercise.
Reality Check: Walking around Target wears me out, exercise is just not happening. Now that I'm having pains walking around the house and going to work daily is enough.

Healthy Eating
Before getting pregnant I was really focused on cooking more, eating local, healthy foods and eating more organic foods. We joined a CSA this summer and all was good. I was under the impression (and Dave was too) that once I got pregnant I would only put wholesome foods in my body to nourish my baby and avoid HFCS at all costs.
Reality Check: I suffered from 15+ weeks of severe nausea including the heavy duty drug zofran. I didn't eat anything but white carbs for most of those days. Once the nausea passed, my appetite barely returned so I still wasn't eating healthy. It was survival mode over here and I ate what my body was in the mood for. I still eat toast for dinner more nights than I care to admit.
The milk and meat I do eat now (at home) are still organic but since I'm not cooking most nights my consumption is slim.
I'm embarrassed to admit that this former sweets-lover couldn't even eat dessert for awhile and when I used to hate salty foods- it became all I could eat. I've eaten more McDonald's fries and coke (HFCS at it's finest), and fried foods in the last 30 weeks then in my whole life. Organic, local, wholesome foods? what's that? I sure don't know lately

Super Wife
I'd love to think that I'm a super wife and still taking care of wifely things. I imagined I'd still cook us healthy dinners (see above), do laundry, be nesting and craving a clean house but all of that just didn't quite happen.
Reality Check: the early nausea really wore me out (I was starting a new school year of 1st graders as well which is always exhausting) and then once that passed, my back pain and sciatic starting flaring up. I haven't done any laundry, cleaning or cooking in months and I feel so bad.

Maybe next time around at this pregnancy thing, I'll be able to be the pregnant lady I dreamed of! For now, I'll just focus on keeping my baby growing in there but next time hopefully I'll be that lady who is working out, looks cute with a nice round bump/pregnancy glow and is cooking her family organic meals.
Hopefully I can be that new mom and just have to continue it next time I'm pregnant. I can get that life back- I hope it works out!